Not Defeated For Long

A few weeks ago, I applied for an HR position with a local company. I was ecstatic when I got a call to schedule a phone interview. Ecstatic I tell ya! The phone interview went pretty well. I felt that I answered her questions well, and I had good questions for her. She said that she wanted to move along quickly with the hiring for the position, so I would hear from her the early part of the following week. That week came and left and I didn't hear from her.

Just when I had lost hope, my phone rang and she was asking for an in-person interview. Cue happy dance! ::Happy dance, happy dance:: The interview was the following Monday and I felt that I had a very good interview. I was qualified and I felt like I possessed the qualities that she was looking for. I left with a very, very positive feeling. She said I would hear by the end of the week.

The end of the week came and I didn't hear anything. I thought that it could have to do with the holiday, so I held out hope.

I got an email this morning that she was pursuing a different candidate.

I'm crushed. Heartbroken. Defeated. Numb. I feel like a failure.

I have been searching for a job since I graduated; for over a year. I really felt that this was the one. I keep waiting and waiting. I feel like God is trying to teach me patience. And I'm trying really hard. I know that God will send the right job along when he is ready and when he knows that I'm ready. But, I'm ready. Do you hear me God?? I'm ready!! I'm waiting!!

I still have faith that God will send me the right job when the time is right.

I spent my lunch break crying to Drew. And most of my work day wanting to come home and cry. Do you want to know what I did when I got home? Sent more resumes out! That's right! I got right back up and back on the horse. That's the only way that I'll find my dream job.