Friday, June 10, 2011

The Hardest Post I Will Ever Write

I finally got a call back from the RE's office on Wednesday morning.  The news wasn't so great.  My beta had gone up, but it had only gone up to 21.8, from 15.8 on Friday.  They immediately started me on Lovenox injections that would hopefully help the blood flow issue that I was having.  My estrogen and progesterone levels were great, according to the nurse.

I went back in this morning for another blood draw and got the call a few hours later that my beta had dropped down to 7.  I'm going to miscarry.  I'm going to lose my baby.

Basically, I'm numb.  It was hard enough for me to finally get pregnant, it wasn't supposed to be hard for me to stay pregnant.  I know that life isn't fair, but this really and truly isn't fair at all.  I really just don't know what to say right now.

I want to thank each and every one of you who left a congratulatory comment.  They mean so much to me!

10 comments:

Hollie said...

I'm really sorry. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Amye said...

I am so sorry Tania. I was praying this news would be alot better. You deserved this so much. ((HUGS)) You know where to find me if you need a shoulder to cry on.

Christine said...

So so so so so not fair. I am so sorry - I know there is nothing I can say to make this better. (((hugs)))

Mrs. B said...

I am so, so sorry. It is not fair at all.

Trusty Gal said...

Hugs, hugs and more hugs. I am always thinking and praying for you!

tanya johnson said...

I am sorry you are going thru this. I know too well how it feels. I will say, mourn and weep, then pick up the pieces. You WILL get your forever baby. And when you do, it will be that more precious. If ya need to talk to someone who's worn similar shoes, message me on facebook and I can even give you my number. I have to available ears and a shoulder should you need it. -tanya

Sarah said...

Tania, so sorry to hear this... you are in my thoughts.

Teri said...

Tania,
George and I will be praying for you and Drew. I am so sorry. I also, have experienced this. We are asking for a miracle.

Grandma~rella said...

(((((Tania and Drew)))))
My heart is truly breaking as I type. I weep for you both~may God bless and heal your hearts. Please do not give up. Know I am here for you...anytime. Wish I could just reach out and hug you guys, along with Tiffany and Zach. Gonna be saying some big time, special prayers for all four of you precious kids...who soooo deserve to become parents. Pleassse keep believing...it WILL happen. Much love, many thought's and unceasing prayer... G'Ma Cindy :*(

Mar said...

*Hugs* It does suck. There are no words to express how awful it is, I wish it never happened to anyone. I especially wish it wasn't happening to you.