When I first decided to take the plunge and start my photography business, I swore up and down and around in circles that I would never, ever, EVER shoot a wedding. I was a bride once, and I remember how important those pictures were to me. I remember that I didn't meet my wedding photographer until the day before the wedding, and Drew told me not to worry because "he shoots for Sports Illustrated and National Geographic". I remember the panic that I had because those aren't even remotely close to wedding at all. However, my fears were ridiculous and Brad did an even better job than I could have ever imagined.
But, I still know how important those images are. I remember walking up the next morning and realizing that I could hardly remember the day before. I wanted to see my pictures so badly so that I could try to arouse some of my memory of that day. We received our pictures a few weeks later and I loved being able to walk through that day as I scrolled through the images.
I always said that I never wanted to be a wedding photographer. A wedding photographer gets one chance to nail the shot. The first kiss as husband and wife? That only happens once! The moment when they are announced as husband and wife and they beam with love and joy? That only happens once!
What if I were their photographer and someone walked in front of me during one of those big moments? What if I didn't meter correctly and my image was blown out or too dark? What if my focus was off? What if my camera suddenly decided it hated me and died? What if I missed their big moment and they had no image to look back on and smile in joy and remembrance?
I just couldn't take that pressure!
So, I swore that I would never photograph weddings. And I stand by that.
But then, I was talking to Kristen, the photographer who has done all of our photos since my maternity photos. She asked me if I would ever be interested in second shooting with her. I told her that I would entertain the idea, as long as I was not responsible for all the important images. We discussed it a little bit and she asked me to second shoot with her at a wedding in the beginning of October. I've been a little terrified thinking of it, but knew that it was still a ways off.
Then, she messaged me earlier this week. She asked me if I was available to second shoot with her this weekend. My heart leaped into my throat and I panicked. I didn't have hardly any time to prepare, but she reassured me that she would take care of the hard stuff and that I was there for all the peripherals. So, I agreed.
And that's how I second shot my first wedding yesterday. I was so terrified as I drove there. Of course, once I took out my camera and started shooting, all the anxiety started to melt away. I know how to use my camera. (The flash is a different story!) I just relied on what I knew and gave my best effort.
I quickly skimmed through my images before I sent them over to Kristen and they weren't awful. There were a bunch of pretty good ones. There were also a bunch of pretty crappy ones, but hey, it was my first time shooting in that situation! I definitely learned a lot and will need to work on improving. I had such a great time second shooting and I actually really, really want to do many more. Of course, it was awesome to get out of the house for a while!
Now today, I have the biggest blisters on my feet from wearing brand new shoes and being on my feet more than I have in a long time. Next time, I definitely won't be wearing new shoes!